Something NEW!

I am 20 and last night was my first time entering a club, a full blown place. I taught for some moment why am I on that place. But well im broken hearted and it is time for me not to cry and get a hell of fun. It is fun to watch how people get crazy over one drink. LOL. Half of the people inside were tourist because spring break is fast approaching, and everyone wants to have some good time.

lights and smoke. It has been 5 years since my last sniff of 2nd hand smoke. cough. but it was alright.

music. it was crazy. i love every little tiny bit of it.

friends. I saw similar faces, co-workers and mutual friends! it was a blast.

A downside about this is I cannot drink yet. This guy on the front door drew a big X’s on my two hands. YOU CANT DRINK GIRL!

hahaha i love how everybody had a great time. I will sure come back. you bet!

Hell Week

jan 20     I started to act cold toward him. No i love you’s and short replies

jan 25     I dont know what happened but i suddenly said things that would hurt him and we broke up

 Feb 4     for the past week i have realized what really had happened. I pm-ed him to get online so i can talk to him.  I do not have anything to say to him at all. I missed him, and that is enough.

Feb 5     yey i have money! it’s time to call him and say sorry, yet it did not happened. Once i heard his voice, I was blank.  He is mad, of course, but Im still greatfull that he did not have the grudge to hit that deny button

Feb 8     my conversation with him  hanged on this day. reason= no chicha to call . I taught were doing ok for the past few days, I know he knew why I am calling him consecutively.

Feb 14   YM but nothing so important. he told me to sleep- ” for me it felt like he is irritated, and i should get lost”

Feb 16   he is online. WOW. but he is busy. maybe tom.

Feb  17  i did not get a hold of him, i have a class that morning. :-c 

Feb 18   i called him several time this day, and the day before, and the day before. hoping he will take some time to talk to me. answered his phone= nothing happened. I decided to PM him what i felt and what i have planned for. failed! he didn’t received it, so I “copy-paste”. reaction=nothing. I was crying, I am sorry, I told him everything, it felt  like someone pull off a torn in my heart. atleast he now knows.

Feb 19  called him. YM talk. im begging him to be with me. Pride thrown out the window. Face all over the floor. I dont care, I want him back. I taught he is about to say YES, but it ended up being a NO. cryin’, crying cryinggggg. Lastly, 3 voicemails. reaction= nothing. Not the person i knew,  i know!

Feb 20 called him. YM. still a NO. not the answer i want to hear but its a NO. begging him, begging him and begging him. Before when she hears me crying, he would want me to stop. Now even if i cries, and not be able to breathe, it does not matter to him. A stoned person i never knew before. I ask my friends, none of the reasons suits him best. That is why i dont want to let go, I dont undestand, I dont know!!!!  eyes are swollen, wasted body, headaches, 2am. 

No eat. ulcer. until now. A relationship will never be a relationship if there is only one person who wants it. even though how hard i tried, there is still nothing, not even a single sign.  I did not give up, but what can i do?

This morning at work, I received a text message for me to eat. its from him. tears. a co-worker even ask me if im crying. I lied that i yawned. i dont know what i felt. PAIN.

No apetite, i will open my books if i can study and not think of him. Its crazy! Im insane.

He told me he had thrown away his ring, our ring, and ask me to throw away all the stuff he had given me. PAIN. My head is asking me WHY. i dont know!

1 year and 8 months. a good foundation to start. but not anymore! I failed. im sorry!

There is more to say, but i have to end this now. 

If he does not come back, i’ll have to quit~

Kris Allen - To Make You Feel My Love

Kris Allen - To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

 When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven’t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I’ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I’d go hungry
I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there’s nothing
That I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

WhiteHorse

Taylor Swift - White Horse (Taylor Swift)

Say your sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time
‘Cause I honestly believed in you

Holdin’ on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,I should’ve known
I should’ve known

(Chorus)
That I’m not a princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
To come around

Maybe I was naive
Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
My mistake I didn’t know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings,
Now I know

(Chorus)
That I’m not a princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
To come around

And there you are on your knees
Beggin’ for forgivness
Beggin’ for me
Just like I always wanted but I’m soo sorry…..

That I’m not your princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone someday who might actually
Treat me well
This is a big world
That was a small town
There in my rear view mirror dissapearin’ now
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
To catch me now…..

Whoa ohhh ohhh ohhh oh
Try and catch me now
Ohhh
It’s too late…..

NEW ADDICTION????????????

As far as everyone on my buddy list is concern, Im really addict in staying online in YM. I just dont try to be invi or log out even if im not talking to anyone. So i found PLurk that is like twitter but in a different way;I want to get more link on my forum signature in e-games so i joined plurk. At first It was the most boring online interactive I know because igot no one to talked to or friends i can see plurking. When Kath, whom is my first friend, commented on my blog and added me up on plurk, that is where i began to be addicted on it.  I added most of her friends, who were commenting oh her plurks page, the reason is i just want to have friends haha lol.

Now i got i guess 43 friends and 43 karma too.. Most of my friends are Ranatics or other online player, and Im an audista which is SAD. Eh bat pa ako magrereklamo e hindi nmn ako naglalaro na hahahaa!!!

try it!!!! here is my plurk page, add me if you got one!  click me

VDAY MOMENT

Buti na lang nakarecover na ng dotPH. Meron na naman akong blog!!!! wuuuuuuu!! so its been like 2 to 3 weeks na walang post. Nagdaan na ang valentines at paychecks hehe…

 How is my VDAY!

Hmmm it started on the night of Feb 13, i got a paper on the door knob saying that I got a package and they had been there to deliver it, yet unfortunately, No one is home. So they will try tomorrow or i will pick it up after 5:30pm.  The sad part is, I got home aroung 8pm from an interview. The next day I had school, and i cant wait to get the package, that i know is from KEVIN! I call home to see if they already delivered it, and my kuya say YES. Ayun i drove as fast as i could makita ko lang kung ano nasa laman nung package. Pag open ko, nakita ko agad yung muka ng stuff toy~!! ANG CUTE! 

His name was KIZMO, anak ko!!!! ayan ang valentine gift sakin ni dad ko I love you dad!!!

FLIP Skittles hilarious commercial

WTFOMG HAHAHA

The very first time I saw this commercial, I was  hooked na agad. First time kong makakita ng flip commercial, tapos sobrang nakakatawa hahaha!!!!

here is the translation:

white: wait im not eating skittles

thai: HEY! Stop eating! You should be

flip: e nagugutom ako e

second line: you’re talking to me like you’re crazy!

flip: nagugutom nga ako, e di kakain ako

third line: stop being lazy! (%*(^&(%^()#$%*&#@($&

flip: wag mo naman ako %^($&%#($%)$*&(%*  then kick the mirror

HAHAHA ROFLMAO!!! The BEST commercial, pinailkli tong commercial na to e, di na sinama un PU*&*&%^%&, tapos mukang nabanned na ata to,di ko na kasi napapanood e. This is so full of sh*t and so hilarious!!! Proud to be noypi!!!!

Jane Martinez

My Niece Jane Martinez (anak ng kuya ko)

 Gusto ko lang isulat tong pamangkin kong super duper cute. Umalis ako ng pilipinas baby pa lang siya, at ngayon nagaaral na siya. Dati nung wala pa siyang isip, di niya ako kilala, actually kami ng family ko. Kahit si kuya na papa niya e di niya maxado kilala pero now close na sila . Naalala ko pag kinakausap ko siya, mga 3 years old siya, ang suplada maxado at sobrang spoiled. Ngayon naman napakadaldal na niya, nagtatanong na ng mga bagay bagay sakin. Naalala kong tanong niya sakin ay ” Tita Caren may boyfriend ka na ba?” WTF, iniintriga ako ng pamangkin ko hahaha. Syempre di ko sasagutin yun, baka gumaya sakin, 5 years old palang ata siya noh. Binalik ko yung tanong sa kanya ” ikaw may crush ka na ba sa school?” Aba ang buong akala ko na WALA ang isasagot niya, akalain kong UU ang sinabi sakin. “meron po kaklase ko, si DUKE (baka luke un di ko lang narinig)” Sa isip ko sobrang grabe ang panahon na ngayon, nursery palang may crush na, samantalang ako, 1st year HS na ako nagkacrush hahaha,..

Same kami ng school ni jane sa nursery, school namin yung periuculture. Then mag prepatory siya sa SJA- St Joseph Academy Laspinas na school ko for 11 years. Pinagpipilian lang naman ay Bernardo College or SJA e, eh di na maganda quality sa bernardo ngayon, at ang SJA maraming  new facilities na pinagawa. Ang problema lang ni kuya is yung tuition ni jhane. Kung yung dati kong tuition nung prep ako, kalahati lang ng tuition niya ngayon haha. Nakapasa na si jhane, mageenroll na lang at papasok. Sana magtuloy tuloy rin si jhane sa  SJA, kilala rin naman ng mommy ko yung principal sa elementary  department. 

Parang legacy na ng family namin magschool sa SJA. Ako, si camille (kapatid ko), at future si jhane!!!

Ang BANGO BANGO…

napapadalas ang pagsusulat ko lately ahh.. dagdagan ko pa hehe!

Mga kadalasan sinasabi ko na may ibig sabihin pag nagtatampo ako 

OO - kahit isang daan beses kong sabihin ok lang kahit ganito, ayus lang na ganyan. ANG HIRAP! ang dating kasi sa kausap ko, literal na OO, pero minsan ang OO ko e HINDI, base sa nararamdaman ko. 

WALA - pag ang sagot ko e WALA. nakow baka nagtatampo na ako. Matampuhin kasi ako, at spoiled pa. Lahat gusto ko sakin lang, pero hindi naman pwede yun kasi may kanya kanya namang mundo bawat tao. 

ayan ang crucial words ko pag medyo ilang na ako kausap ka. Pinaplastik ko na lang. Hinahayaan ko na lang kahit masakit sa puso. Hayzzz buhay nga naman ang LABO LABO, isapak mo pa ung ugali ko, magiging opaque na talaga!!! 

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I already got the mineral makeup i bought from everydaymineraldotcom. So far lahat ng napili kong shades ng base ko is kakulay ko. Professional ang dating haha LOL~  Ung mint concealer is maganda magtago ng cheekbones but panget sa under eye e. At ung best friend blush ko parang kakulay ng skin tone ko. So  i need more samples para makita ko na talaga ang real blush at concealer na magada sakin.

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SPEAKING OF MABABANGO

Itong katrabaho ko, hilig paamoy yung kilikili sakin. May fetish kasi sa mababango yun taong un. Grabe after 6 hours of working, talagang tinawag pa ako para ipaamoy ang armpit niyang maasim haha. Pero di ko naman inamoy, pag ilalapit na niya at itataas ang kamay , e di ako hihinga. Aba sanay ata ako sa mga ganyan modus operandi, nasa pinas palang ako. Hahaha what a cool moment, parang tanga lang..

Sa work ulit. Si J ay papasok na, xempre galing sa bahay, mabango at grabe malayo palang amoy mo na, at kahit dumaan lang siya, maamoy mo parin ung scent niya. So si Jen kausap ko, tapos biglang dumaan si J, sabi ko ang bago naman ni J, then sabi niya “I can still smell him”. OO naman ako kasi totoo naman ako, then sabay banat ni jen na ” we can eat him”. tawa ako e, ” hahaha na- ah you can eat him” sabay alis ako at tinawag ko si J. Sinabi ko lahat ng sinabi ni jen at narinig ako nila V at R. TAWA kami ng TAWA. nahiya si JEN!!! then i told her na “Brittany (J gf) will kill you if she’s here” 

Ito naman si V, sabi sakin, kaamoy ko daw si brirney the other day sabay banat na ” I cant still remember, you told me that” ako naman sagot na ” cause you ask me about it” oha english ever ako sa work hahaha!!!! Itong lalaking to ang hilig sa mabango. He even ask J kung ano pabango niya. Pero infairness mabango rin xa, ayun ang sabi niya e. pagbigyan haha!!!

KAHAPON

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT im here again. may mga  ngyari lang kahapon at kanina e, so report again.

PINOYS. Nakow may new discovery na naman si ms ellen degeneres sa youtube. And RIN ON THE ROX, two filipinas na nakanta sa banyo. HAHAHA trip nila kumanta sa banyo dahil sa acoustic at echoe na dating ng blending ng boses nila sa loob. Ang kulit at sana tuloy tuloy career nila. Erin is pure pinay while ROX is half white. love them they were so goooooooooooooooooooood!

SCENT. i have been using this particular scent about a year na. I got it last year christmas from my cousin jegs. And the smell is sweet and sexy kaya lagi ko na xa ginagamit. Akalain niyo na pag naamoy ako ng mga boys e, mukang sarap na sarap sila. Di naman ako nagyayabang pero true. Kahapon this hot guy ask me what’s my scent, who give it to me. get to know my  pabango ba? haha pero nablushhiiie blushiee ako parang may alam na akong way para mangakit ng guy.. hahaha. joke lang dad kevin

EX. Speaking of EX, nasulat ko na tong ex ko na to na as i describe is lulubog lilitaw mode lagi. 2 week siyang lumubog, at ngayon ay nalitaw na naman. Meron syang new project “bhaby” daw. New car lang pala yun, kala ko new girl and love life na. He is so weird, he ask for the picture of my plate haha. may balak atang iblatter as missing ung plaka ko hahaha kaloka talaga to si EX!

FEB. As usual VDAY ang  FEB. pero kalungkot di kami magkakasama ng dad ko. Pero “THATS OK” diba kevin? haha konting time na lang at magsasama rin kami niyan ni dad. I want to give him something kaso naman mas mahal pa yung shipping and handling sa price ng ipapadala ko haha. So ipunin ko na lang then bigay ko sa kanya paguwi ko. hehe

AIRLINES. Nakita ko yung hawaiian airlines na nakaadvertise sa TFC. i cheked it out kahapon, tapos nagjoin ako as member haha. Baka kasi may mga dicounts pag member e hahaha. Tsaka meron silang sale sa mga tickets to manila. Wish ko yung trip ko is may stop over sa hawaii for like 3-5 days, maenjoy ko man lang ang hawaii bago punta ng pinas. WOOOOOOOOOOO dami ko na naiisip, next year pa naman ako uuwi haha

MAKEUPS. hahaha everydayminerals.com ang isa sa mga site na nakita ko na cheap ang mineral makeup. AT meron silang free samples kit na  pwede mo itry, then babayaran mo lang for $3 for shipping. HAHAHA edi xempre grab ko, sayang yun e ) pwede mo siya ulit ulitin hanggang makuha mo yung skin color mo. Imagine 5 small bottles na make ups, 3 are base powders, 1 is blush, and the other is concealer. haha tipid XD